Before I share my freedom story I thought it would be a good idea to first define freedom. One way dictionary.com defines freedom is “the state of NOT being imprisoned or enslaved.” Another way they define freedom is “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.” Wow! To act, speak or think as one wants? That is what typically leads us into bondage in the first place isn’t it? When we choose to do things our own way instead of Gods way.
I’ve been boy crazy ever since I can remember. It all started in middle school when I was sneaking to hold hands in chapel, kissing my boyfriend in the stairwell and swooning over the older classman who stuck his lettermen jacket in my locker. I found my worth in all the attention I was getting from these boys instead of finding my worth in Jesus. The older I got the harder it got to withstand temptation. Lines were crossed, hearts were broken and so was my spirit. It is only by the sovereign hand and grace of God that I still have my virginity.
The summer of my junior year of high school, I was sitting in a mall parking lot with my mom and God intervened. I knew I was suppose to end it with my boyfriend of 3 years and I also knew God was calling me into a season of not dating. I didn’t date my senior year and it was the best year of my life. I had finally surrendered my life to the plans and purposes of God instead of chasing after my own plans.
Here I am 7 years later still waiting and believing that God will bring that guy into my life in His perfect timing. Yes there have been bumps in the road, yes its been hard but I have felt so much freedom in waiting on God.
All throughout scripture God tells us to wait on Him. He doesn’t tell us to wait because He wants to withhold good things from us. He tells us to wait so we will receive His best in His timing. Waiting is hard but it creates in us a trust in Him like never before. It allows us to take the pressure off of ourselves to go out and find the right one and instead allow God to ordain our steps to that right one.
Psalm 27:14 says, “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
I pray you all find freedom in waiting on Jesus.